Finding Balance

It amazes me how there are times that I seem to get a million things done in no time and feel like Supermom. At the same time, it disappoints me that there are times that I seem to get nothing done in a whole lot of time, and feel like a failure! Things have been a bit ‘off’ for me lately. I have let stuff around me get out of balance. I don’t need to be Supermom, but I do need to regroup and up the game a little.

I have been at a crossroad in several things and have felt a little stuck. Not knowing the right direction to take sometimes sends me into a panic. I am a planner and an organizer and I have this inner drive to always know my game plan. So, what do I do when I don’t know what to do? Well, this time, instead of taking charge and getting through my ‘stuff,’ I have procrastinated and avoided.

It has been long enough and somehow I don’t think it will all magically go away! What made me realize this is that I am at the end of a great novel. I love to read and when the book is really good, it is hard to put it down. Not only is it the end of a great book, but it is the last (as of yet) in a series of five! I have (once again) read through them consecutively. This last one in particular has gone by in a flash.

There is no better distraction from something you are putting off, than to get into a fantasy world and pretending your world doesn’t exist. Don’t get me wrong…I haven’t been reading night and day and forgetting all my responsibilities and such, but when I could be spending a few minutes looking for a new recipe to get me out of the food boredom rut, instead of just wishing I had some new ideas, it would be time better spent. I could definitely turn out the light and get more sleep instead of getting involved in the plot of a book and waking up tired, wondering why I didn’t go to bed earlier!

So, I have decided to take some action. I planned out all my “To-Do’s” on my list in order of priority and I am no longer going to procrastinate and avoid!! One by one, I will catch up and keep up and (try to) not let myself get overwhelmed with my never-ending tasks. Enough pressure to get the job done, but not so much to send me into a panic about not being able to do it!

Of course, this doesn’t mean an end to my reading! It just means that it will be my reward for a job well done instead of a way out. That way, I get to enjoy it instead of feeling guilty about it and thinking I should be doing something else. We moms work too hard not to get a little down time, too!